I have actually been avoiding my next blog (this one) because I didn't do anything I said I was going to do in my last blog...wth, it's like I thought the blog gods would punish me or something! This is my dang BLOG and I will mess up if I want to! Yes, I probably need psychological help...my mind is a terrible thing to try to figure out! I was so concerned with what I had not done that I didn't even think about blogging (and bragging) that I bought a new pair of pants the other day and they are size 12!!!!
Needless to say, my gym time has not suffered...I have been going to both gyms (because one gym membership just wasn't enough!), and it is not really that hard to get myself to go anymore...thank goodness for the month of August! My issue is committing to more than one thing at a time...isn't it??? I just don't know what to think about this 'issue' anymore...
So, my previous commitments...well, the one that stands out the most is the state of my bedroom...you know, the bedroom that I was going to clean and organize. Very few people have seen the state of my bedroom. I am not a messy person, and I keep my house clean and organized. So, why is this such an issue in my bedroom....?....it has ALWAYS been. I never would have thought there might be a link between my issues with my weight and my not wanting to be even be in my bedroom, much less keep it clean and organized...but, WOW, there most definitely is a link! I've discovered this while diagnosing myself with the mental issues that have kept me in this fat suit for so long.
While glad that I have discovered this link, I'll admit that I am overwhelmed at the thought of now dealing with it. To think, I started writing this to force myself to commit to loosing weight once and for all....oh, boy is there more to this!
I have spent the last 25 years weaving and existing in my comfy little (or big) web! Now, how do I get out of it? One nasty string at a time.............
