Never thought I'd hear myself say that! I will not be able to go to the gym this Saturday...it will be the only day this month that I won't go to the gym. I've been stressing about it all week! The gym has become my habit, or perhaps my obsession. I wake up thinking about what workout/machines I will do that night at the gym and I think about it all day until it's time to go to the gym...What the Hey! When did this happen?
Now, I have no idea how I will handle things once my commitment is up. Will I keep going, will my habit "stick", or will I just be glad it's over and say I did my time and move on?...I don't know either :(.
What I do know is that we are taking our annual camp/float trip this weekend and my plan is to NOT think about the gym until I get back on Sunday. I'm gonna try anyway. My plan is to workout early on Friday then late on Sunday, so Saturday is the only day I don't go to the gym.
It sounds like a good plan and I am very excited about a weekend away...so why am I stressing about it!?! I have gone from not being able to commit to any exercise program to now obsessing over one! I am even thinking about joining a SECOND gym.....................What have I done to myself??? :-)
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Quitting is not an Option...Right??
15 days straight and I gained a pound! Oh yea, I was really ready to quit...what the heck!?! Talk about mad! I start to tell everyone I know what a joke this whole thing is...I mean, really??, I go to the gym, kill myself for an hour...everyday for 15 days, and I gain weight! This is just wrong!
I left my WW meeting on Tuesday thinking that I was going to go home that night, eat a big dinner (of whatever I wanted!), relax and not even think about going to the gym! I have been so behind on all my evening tv watching, and forcing myself to go to the gym...even if it's 10 p.m.! I was almost relieved to think that I could just stop stressing and not even bother anymore. I could just go back to going to the gym once a week...maybe, if I had time and nothing to watch on tv. After all, if the results were the same as before I started this gym thing, then why bother...right?
Of course, by the time I got home, I realized that I really wasn't being honest and that what I was really doing was looking for yet another excuse to QUIT! I went to the gym that night...
While I was being honest, I went ahead and admitted that I have NOT been very good at counting points and keeping up with what I have been eating...ok, ok, I fell into that "well, I'm working out like a mad women so surely I can eat whatever I want" thing. Didn't even realize I was doing it! Wow, the mind can be very tricky...lol.
I felt much better after my workout that night, and after talking it all out with Debbie! I decided that that would be the end of my pity party...and that this commitment is only worth the effort if I am making all the necessary changes in my lifestyle...working out is not enough :(.
To answer my own question...Quitting is NOT an option!
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Day 10...Could it be Getting Easier!
So, I pushed through the weekend...yay! My wedding anniversary celebration seemed to last all 3 days :). While that was very nice, making it to the gym Friday through Sunday was soooo hard. I'll admit it, I was not in a very good mood when I left the house on those 3 days :(. However, every time, about 2 minutes into it, I was so glad I had made it to the gym!
After the weekend, I had a candid conversation with myself. I said "self, you really need to quit punishing everyone around you with your bad moods when it's time to go to the gym!". I agreed with myself and decided to start fresh on Monday...with a better attitude.
My workouts have gotten easier/better by the day. Am I starting to get used to going to the gym?! Wait, who said that!?! ;-)
I also made the decision to cut my Weight Watcher meetings back to every other week, instead of every week. Seeing that number every week has become a real stressor for me. I have decided not to concentrate so much on that number. I do need the meetings, so I'm not gonna stop going completely. After all, I did say (back in February) I would do WW's for at least one year. I had completely forgotten about saying that...probably because I have made that 'commitment' to WW's twice before and not kept it! But, I have been going all this time, and I feel pretty committed to seeing this one through. Yay, I'm still going to meetings 6 months later!
I actually caught myself trying to think of what my next 'committment' would be when my 30 days are up at the gym. I know, I know...one commitment at a time, right?? Or two? Who knows, maybe I will get used to committing and end up keeping a few commitments at once! Who knows.............
After the weekend, I had a candid conversation with myself. I said "self, you really need to quit punishing everyone around you with your bad moods when it's time to go to the gym!". I agreed with myself and decided to start fresh on Monday...with a better attitude.
My workouts have gotten easier/better by the day. Am I starting to get used to going to the gym?! Wait, who said that!?! ;-)
I also made the decision to cut my Weight Watcher meetings back to every other week, instead of every week. Seeing that number every week has become a real stressor for me. I have decided not to concentrate so much on that number. I do need the meetings, so I'm not gonna stop going completely. After all, I did say (back in February) I would do WW's for at least one year. I had completely forgotten about saying that...probably because I have made that 'commitment' to WW's twice before and not kept it! But, I have been going all this time, and I feel pretty committed to seeing this one through. Yay, I'm still going to meetings 6 months later!
I actually caught myself trying to think of what my next 'committment' would be when my 30 days are up at the gym. I know, I know...one commitment at a time, right?? Or two? Who knows, maybe I will get used to committing and end up keeping a few commitments at once! Who knows.............
Friday, August 5, 2011
Motivation...Is A Great Thing
I made it to day 5! Normally I struggle to get in the gym once or twice a week...so, I'm feeling pretty good about this week. I had to talk myself into it every night and, most nights, Debbie counting on me was the only reason I went, but looking back, it wasn't so bad. Maybe there is truth to the whole 'everything becomes a habit after doing it every day for a few weeks'. That's what I'm going to chose to believe...this week :).
Oh yea, the motivation...I definitely had some of that today! When I started this blog I promised my husband that I would keep him out of it...so, I will only say that when I am 'upset' with him (for something that was totally HIS fault), my work out is definitely more intense. I will be sore tomorrow for sure. Alright, I was pretty pissed!
Lucky for him, I worked it all out and I feel so much better...physically and mentally. I'm not even mad anymore :). Which is a good thing because tomorrow is a very big day for him and me...
The weekend will be the hardest for me. I am kinda worried about it already :(. I do plan to find a different kind of motivation tomorrow...no fights tomorrow, it's a big day :).
I need to clean the cabinets tonight and make sure there are no potato chips in sight............
Oh yea, the motivation...I definitely had some of that today! When I started this blog I promised my husband that I would keep him out of it...so, I will only say that when I am 'upset' with him (for something that was totally HIS fault), my work out is definitely more intense. I will be sore tomorrow for sure. Alright, I was pretty pissed!
Lucky for him, I worked it all out and I feel so much better...physically and mentally. I'm not even mad anymore :). Which is a good thing because tomorrow is a very big day for him and me...
The weekend will be the hardest for me. I am kinda worried about it already :(. I do plan to find a different kind of motivation tomorrow...no fights tomorrow, it's a big day :).
I need to clean the cabinets tonight and make sure there are no potato chips in sight............
Thursday, August 4, 2011
What was I thinking?!?
3 down and 28 more to go. It sounded like a great idea...'hey, we should commit to going to the gym every day for the whole month of August and just see what happens'. That was 3 days ago. Not wanting to disappoint my friend/new workout buddy, my answer...'Ooookay'.
You should know that my weight has been a big struggle in my life for at least 20 years. I am a yo-yo for sure. I have had some good success (and some not so good success) through the years. I have never starved myself and I have always tried to ere on the 'healthy' side of trying to loose weight...but, I will admit to a few fads. My goal, to loose 60 lbs.
So, the question here is not was this a great idea? That answer is simple: enough is enough! I need to loose this weight, I pay for a gym membership that I hardly use, my gym is less than 2 miles from my house and most times my friend picks me up (I don't even have to drive there!), and finally...after 20 years, I know what works and what doesn't work (for me). And I know that my best weight loss has been when exercise is involved.
OK, so then, what is the problem???
My commitment level sucks! I can't ever stick to it for very long. I start out great! After a while (even when I am seeing results), for whatever reason, I completely sabotage myself!
In an attempt to "work" on this, I have decided to try to concentrate on my "Commitment to Commit"!
3 days down, 28 to go...
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