Oh, You Mean This is Something I Have to Keep Working on???

Having a bad day...a couple of bad days...ok a bad 8 days!  Can't put my finger on it, but there was definitely something different about the month of August.  Why was my commitment (you know, the one I didn't quite keep in August) so much easier to 'try' to keep??  September...not so much! :(

Ok, here is where I tell you that I have a real 'psychological' issue with people noticing that I'm loosing weight.  Ikr...how can it bother me that people notice and compliment me...omgoodness, isn't that the point!?!  I have had many a conversations with myself regarding this little issue of mine...yea, myself doesn't get it either so she's no help! 

This is no doubt the reason that I have been on this yo-yo for all these years.  I get to a certain point, start to really see a difference, start getting nice compliments and words of encouragement from people....and that's it!  It's like I put the car in reverse! :( 

I only just identified this 'issue' of mine a couple years ago...yes, I said years :(...and I have stopped asking why...I don't even know that I care why anymore! I just want to push through this part once and for all!  This year I decided that I would start telling anyone that would listen about this issue I have discovered I have (that poor lady on the bus).  Maybe if I get it out there, let people know what a weirdo I am, it would somehow make me wanna not sabotage myself when I get to this point. 

Is it working??  Not at this moment, no...it is not!  One day at a time, right...that is what I said...right??

Sooo, for this day...I will make good food choices and do some form of exercise...I WILL!